On the Monday when we heard the awful news, I immediately thought of the worst possible scenarios. I couldn't imagine life without you and I could not contain my tears at the thought of this. I should have been stronger for you, it's that I handle bad news very badly. You will always be my baby, and the thought of you not spending your life with us, going camping, going to school and church dances, getting your drivers license and eventually getting married and having kids... It broke my heart, my soul...It seemed to crush my very being and all I could do was cry. Then when we went to the hospital and found out that it was not as bad as we had expected, my heart soared. I was buoyed by the prayers and could feel the power behind them and I felt the love sent to us by so many. Prayers are answered Indie. There are many types of miracles and I honestly believe that through priesthood blessings, fathers blessings and the many prayers that your journey through these hard times will be for a reason and that you will grow from this challenge.
At the young age of 11 you are going through something that many adults have had in their later years. They had a lifetime of lessons to deal with this. You have had a few tender years and 8 or so years of life to deal with this very serious disease. I am strengthened by your unsinkable joy for life and your spirit that is so beautiful and loving, strong and gentle. I stand amazed at how you handle the treatment.
I have seen you grow through many phases. I now have faith... And I KNOW that it will continue to grow stronger. Your blue eyes as a baby, your love of life as a toddler and your gentle compassionate manner in grade school are all a testament to your awesome and unique soul and spirit.
I remember the first time we met. Your small hands... Your eyes... and small toes. At that time I wondered if I would be good enough as a father to you, if I could rise to occasion to be your daddy. I doubt that there is any person who could be the perfect parent to your awesome spirit. I have a beautiful opportunity. And now with this challenge ahead of you and with us all as your family... Know that I LOVE YOU with all my heart.
Life is beautiful and we will make it through this together.
FOREVER with Love,
Dad
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Jason, stop making me cry. Your command of the english language is amazing--you need to be writing! Your beautiful daughter is making us all feel like being better people. I love you all. Stay strong. Thanks for the updates!
Love Amy
i love you Indie you are doing good I pray for you love livy
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